Well, I'm older. It's bound to happen, and here it is. Birthdays always seem like a time for reflection and goal making. I am filled with mixed feelings today. Generally, I suppose I should be a bit dissatisfied with my life. I definitely am going through a phase where I have it so un-together. I haven't been this uprooted in a long, long time. I'm still living out of boxes and I turned my back on financial security. I need to make some major changes, and I'm still completely baffled as to what I should do. I long to feel settled.
 Now despite all this blah, I am completely worked up and exhilarated. Crazy, right? I have this idea. Which I am currently apprehensive to share. It still feels like a fragile little baby that I need to keep bundled up. Soon enough I will share it with all of you, but for now, I need to nurture it privately. The part that I do want to share, is the excitement. I haven't  been this creatively inspired in years! It is so much fun. My head is so filled with ideas that it overflows into my dreams. I need to keep a notebook by my bed just to catch everything that appears during the night. It's like that excited, all consuming, falling in love feeling. It just seems to make sense. All those life experience that seemed so disjointed, they seem like preparation for this next step.   
 So, this birthday is a mixed bag of chaos and clear direction. I thought the image above pretty much sums it up. Kind of dark and gloomy with signs of life beginning to grow. If I'm allowed a birthday wish, I ask for support, and lot's of it, because I'm going to need it. It's time to live one of my favorite quotes "Leap, and the net will appear". Here I go, I'm leaping, I hope the saying is right, or this could be a mess, but I don't think so. In any case, it's certain to be an interesting adventure.
 Thanks for being out there.